There are some moments which make you stronger person. These impulsive crazy moments are those life changing instances where you finally stand up for what you always knew was right. You finally crush that idiotic conscious of yours which has always held you back (and is actually still trying to hold you back from posting the blog). You stop hiding behind the make believe security of your ego and face reality for what it really is.
As I said above, all this while in your life your bloated ego was your false security. With that in your stride you fooled around, you had your drunk escapades, you laughed, you cried, but always ran away from reality. The irony is you still thought people will take you seriously.
I guess as you wake in the morning it is all about taking a deep breath and be prepared to face the consequences. You will have people laugh behind you , gossip about you, worse is you will most certainly lose a great friend. Having friends help, but in the end all that they will try do is try and help you return to status quo. So, that doesn't really help, as it will be like going back to square one. These are things you have deal with on your own.
Trick is I guess not to make a big deal out of it. You can't pretend nothing has happened, it has. But, you can't let it ruin the other things in your life. In other words you have to move on, whether or not your action has the intended consequences or not.
---
What will happen next? I don't know. Things are still as blurry as they were last night. But who cares, I have done my bit and I am extremely proud of myself for finally having the courage to have done so! Yeah baby! I rock.
Time is right I guess to make a steaming hot cup of coffee and read the paper - little pleasure of life I have denied myself ever since I have come here.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment